Cheesie Goodness

The joy acends as the sun peeks beneath the blinds, dancing on the ceiling making its way across the room to the squints in my eyes. Today is the day I get to see the dazzling white smiles, and energetic tones of excited loves ones. Why excited you say? Today  the magnificent cousin/uncle Carl is making his famous cheesie Potatoes. Dinner went from the intimacy of 2 people enjoying a night of delicious bliss, to a gang of ravenous, but enjoyable family members who even though, add joy to my smile, they also add chaos to the kitchen. In preparation for said madness, getting an early start is the only way to subside the waves of hungry guest entering my sanctuary asking the ever so familiar question , is it done yet? So to save me from the natural sarcastic responses that seem to roll off my tongue tongue and them from looking at me with disgust as they hear maybe and insult wrapped in a smile, I chose to get started while it was just me and the kitchen. Getting ready to mix n match some harmony with bliss. As I grab the giant  baking  potatoes from the pantry, chosen specifically for their girth, so fresh loose earth is still falling from the spuds. After a nice rinse, I channel my inner sailor and peel those things like its my duty. A nice salute to my favorite chefs knife, the trusty sidekick who is always sharp and on point. I'm very familiar with the art of Ginsu so slicing and dicing becomes a rhythmic game of precision. Now to prepare these spuds for a nice hot bath in a pot of boiling water, very important to the process to soften and release some of the starch.  As the water churns and bubbles bubble we turn our attention to the pan that will be their final resting place before being devoured in a carnivorous bur happy way. Here we add the ness to the delicious.This dish isn't for the calorie squeamish, we use real butter, cannot be substituted with I cant believe its not or margarine. They didnt churn that stuff when this recipie was made so we mae sure to stick with it. The cheese is all on you, personally i use the velet of cheeses, velveeta. Creamy smooth silky like texture and it melts very well once you added the right amount of milk. The next and most important part is my secret, so moving on, once the potatoes have cooked for at least 10 to 15 minutes they are ready for the immaculate bed of cheese,milk, and secret ingredients awaiting their presence so effortlessly. Give it a good mix  like martial arts, less the board breaking, you have to make sure everything is blended so all the ingredients meld well together vulcan style. With the oven preheated to the coveted 350, you place them inside the oven until the very top layer of cheese begins to brown, and you here the bubbling of the cheese and the sizzling from the oven. As well as  the people arriving closing their eyes and envisioning the last time the taste of these wonderful spuds danced on their tongues. You can almost feel them tasting them as they lick their lips while effervescently looking for plates and silverware. Once out of the oven, if you aren't mangled by the stampede of people, placing mounds of cheeiness on their plate and some double mounds, even the lactose intolerants of the bunch, you see the chef crack a smile knowing satisfaction is in the air in the form of joy.

Where I want to be

Now this one here is kind of a tricky question for me, being where i truly wanna be isn't really a place technically. Where i want to be truly is more of a state of mind. Where i want to be is stress free, able to love fully and unconditionally. The normal worries are out the window, because i'm well off enough for my kids and their kids kids to  be guaranteed a good life. I want to be in perfect health and in harmony with God. I want to be the role model i need to live up to for my kids to grow and become a functional yet important part of society. I want to be in a place where the lines of color are erased and we see each other as the brothers and the sisters that we truly are. I want to be better. i want to be in a place where wants are no longer wants but on a waiting list to be either acquired or done. I want to be in a place where my family is at peace and can enjoy each other in the way we were meant to with out the rat race or the sheople mentality. I want to be in a place where all things become possible with faith stored from my belief. I want to be free of what society sees as the struggle. as real as the struggle is i'm tired and just wanna be free. Now there we go. Where  I want to be is truly FREE.

connections

well when it comes to hells n heaven's lol this week has been allot of heaven's for me.. been focusing on being happy and one by one all of the hells in my life have started to relieve them selves with out me trying too hard. The one thing i couldn't get away from was the weather of course lol whenever we have a snow day it always throws ever\ything off with work school and the kids. But as we all know the snow melts and life goes on . so here we are living it.. one thing that bothered me a lil was being somewhat unprepared for a quiz in my voice class on Thursday and just wanted that little extra time during the break to practice and low and behold as soon as class started she told me i was going last or most likely after the break. so the idea of going in front of the group ill prepared had me in hell but the heaven shone through as soon as the class started.. beyond that i think i may have met my match in laughter. A goofy young lady was introduced to me over the weekend and i have had a perma grin on my face ever since. compared to the crazy ex sending messages over the weekend before, the hell is on its way out to make room for the heaven that is waiting for me..all in all it makes since that you create your surroundings, all it takes sometimes is a positive thought or move in a positive direction for things to change or turn around.. So no more hell only accepting heaven from here on in.. to add to that one of the hardest things to do is realize that people sometimes carry ideas and attitudes with them around other people. sometimes its not your mood that needs to be changed but you need to change the people to enhance the mood.. more so than not has that one been ringing true lately. So keep your eyes open for the seasons we let stay in our life too long. Like this winter season lol